I'm just tired of being asked what I like, and what I see myself doing in the future.
Honestly, I have no clue. Right now, I like nothing.
I hate it even more when people suggest I do what they do, because ''it's so much fun!''
And then I throw something out there, and ''it's too competitive...'' or ''it's really hard to get into...'' or ''you won't make much money there...''
Thanks. I'm already having enough of a hard time, and now you're making me even more depressed about my future.
All I know is, i'm running out of motivation. I don't even feel like doing my homework. I can't get myself to do it.
I don't want to sit in gym class, unscrambling letters to form words, like we did in sixth grade. I want to play badminton.
I don't want to sit in teams of four to discuss what the author meant to say through his poem.
I don't want to sit and listen to a teacher talk about something they're obviously super interested in and they want us to be super excited and WOOHOO...and then they go ahead and pile on the work...
I walk into class, sit down, I know I have to listen, I have to take notes, I have to concentrate, something will be in the exam, i'll miss something important, and then I stress out, because I want to get really good grades, or else people will think i'm stupid because i'm in Social Science. With Math.
I'm not even good at writing essays.
My teacher from last semester was really confused. She said my language and grammar is excellent, that my writing flows, but the rest is just crap.
This is an example of an essay topic from my English class last semester:
''Lewis believed that a powerful appeal of "fairy tales" is the presence of non-human characters who behave as if human. These non-human characters act as representations of human psychology and character types more effectively than characters in novels. Discuss how Lewis puts this theory into practice in LWW with his non-human characters such as Mr. and Mrs. Beaver, Mr. Tumnus, and Aslan, among other possibilities. What character types or psychological or spiritual profiles do they represent? Consider the techniques of characterization that Lewis uses (description, dialogue, behaviour, and setting) as well as how well-developed, "round," and dynamic each of the characters is. You may also want to compare and contrast the character development of these non-human personalities to the human children. Include at least three direct quotations in each body paragraph.''
Do you WANT me to die?
So I can talk about fairy tales and/or animals who talk and/or psychology and/or other crap and/or shut up and/or WHAT?!!? Oh, and don't forget to include quotations!!!
Oh i'll give you quotations alright. I'll give you the WHOLE BOOK!
Here you go! Read it! That's my proof! I know you love the book. I know you love it, so you won't mind reading through the 900 pages just once more, just to see what I was talking about.
Ok, I actually have to go read a chapter from a book for my Humanities class, I hardly had any time to do anything this weekend, I worked Saturday, prepared for Jacques' birthday party on Sunday, and today I went to take some pictures for a Baseball game, and now i'm just, freaking out, because I really, REALLY don't feel like doing anything.
I wonder who is reading this.